I'll Prove It!

We all know the feeling.  We are going to start our diets on "Monday."  We are going to start working out as soon as we aren't sick/have time/get new workout clothes/get a gym membership.

Nike may have said it best, but I think Brad and I say it better. 

Nike:  Just Do It.

Brad and April:  Go Nazi.

Either way you put it, it's a short way of saying "Suck it up and do this thing 100% without excuses."  Now, since my New Year's resolutions, and my "Making Babies Plan of Action" I've done pretty darn good.  Aside from the occassional weekend treat - I've been sticking to a diet that mainly consists of portion control.  Gee - like THAT'S hard with the Lap-Band...LOL!  Like I will have ONE Fresco Taco instead of 12.  Or HALF a tuna sandwich on flourless organic bread instead of Subway.

But it is still not making a difference, and I know EXACTLY why.

CARBS!

Yes, my friends.  Carbs.  If you're like me - you try to get around it by doing stuff like "Weight Watchers" or "LA Weight Loss" or "Nutri System."  Which is FINE for people without PCOS.  But if you are insulin resistant - I'm sorry.  We HAVE to suck it up and realize that our stupid bodies can't handle it, and that getting pregnant and losing weight DEPENDS on us not eating carbs like we usually do.  These diet plans allow for actually - a LOT of carbohydrates.  If we are being honest with ourselves, we know that this just won't work as well as the alternative.

So here's my plan.  I am going to PROVE to you, myself, and other women with PCOS that with a strict diet rich in water intake, vegetables, nuts, chicken, fish, & healthy fats, and very low in carbohydrates, red meat, soy, & sugar - I will literally just MELT the fat away.  To me, it seems VERY hard...as I always seem to have a reason, or a need to CHEAT, or stop the diet.  But I am going to document it!!  WITH PICTURES! AND VIDEOS!  And it will be awesome. 

Do you ever read all the things you are supposed to eat and do, and say "Heck yes! I am going to do it!" Then end up only half-assing it?  That's the story of my life.  I've only whole-assed it once, and I lost 20lbs in 20 days. 

5 Week Challenge
Goal:  Lose at least 10, but up to 25lbs.  (2 pounds/week is generally "safe" for those who need to lose a little weight, however for obese or morbidly obese people, losing more per week is okay according to my doctor.)

 - NO metformin.  Bleh!
 - 1000-1200 calories/day.
 - 30 full minutes of cardio 4 times per week. (Plus 5 min warm up.)
 - Under 20 carbs per day for 2 weeks. (Atkins Induction)
 - NO soda of any kind.
 - At least 80oz of water daily. (Take your weight, divide by two.  Drink this amount in ounces.)
 - NO caffeine.
 - NO soy.
 - NO artificial sugars other than Splenda.
 - At least 60-80 grams protein/day.
 - Low dairy intake - (usually I load up on cheese, sour cream, cream cheese, half&half, etc... while on a low carb diet, but I am going to limit this as the "Making Babies Plan of Action" suggests.)

Supplies:
- A gun.  Just in case...because this is going to make me want to kill myself. 
- A camera.  I will document my journey and the final result will be awesome!

Each day I will post a menu, which might get redundant and I'm sorry if it does.  But I can do whatever the heck I want on my own blog!!! HAHAHA!  I will also probably post some suicidal thoughts and ideas on what my life would be like with sugar in it.  *daydream*

I am currently still on Week 5 of the C25K, (trying to make up for being sick.)  But I'm doing well and did a 13 minute mile!! WOO!  I also did two miles in 29:20.  Don't laugh!!!  It was hard!  I wish I were 6'2" *sigh* 

Then and Now

I suppose it's probably beneficial to my mental health to gauge how far I've come rather than bash my self-esteem and complain about how bad I'm doing right NOW.

I've decided that I want to get to 143lbs exactly for now.  I would still be in the "overweight" category but that means I will have lost 100lbs.  100 FREAKING POUNDS on a girl who is only 5'2"!!!  Wouldn't that be cool if I could say "Oh, I lost 100lbs."  Yeah.  It would be. 

Highest weight: 243lbs ("Morbidly obese")
Lowest Weight: 184.4lbs ("Obese")
Current Weight: 190.2lbs (Still "obese")
2010 Goal: 160lbs (Puts me in the "overweight" category, and out of the "obese" category.)
Just Because Goal: 143lbs (At the lower end of the "overweight" category.)
"Healthy Weight" Goal: 130lbs (Puts me in the "healthy weight" range for my BMI.)

This was me....um...BEFORE. *barfs*  I think I was 225-230 here.  It's SO weird because I did NOT feel that big at all.  I mean - we won't go into the things I could and couldn't reach on my own body at this point...but MAN, you never realize it...

  This was me sometime during summer 2009.

This was me...uhh...like Fall 2009. Not much different.  I think I was just wearing bigger pants.

This is me today. I actually WEIGH more than I did in Fall 2009.  But with all the cardio I'm getting a little more toned.  I look kinda weirdly pregnant in the side photo.  Meh.

So there you have it. Since Brad and I don't live in the same town right now, it's obviously pointless to be charting, doing ovulation tests, etc... Therefore (and this post is coming soon) I am working on MYSELF. Sucking it up and realizing that I have PCOS and infertility because I am TOO FAT. That's it. I need to realize it. Anyone who is TTC with PCOS and is overweight also needs to realize it.  Taking tons of pills, injecting ourselves, etc...etc... isn't the FIRST thing we need to be doing.  We need to get to a healthier weight first.  It sucks, but it's a simple idea that only requires one thing - DISCIPLINE! 

Sorry for the angry rough-talk.  It's just that when you KNOW what you need to do, yet lack the will and strength to do it, it gets frustrating.  It's not like I'm laying on the couch eating cake all day (okay like 1% of the time I will do that...) but I'm not Going Nazi or anything.

And that is my next post.  :D