I've decided that I want to get to 143lbs exactly for now. I would still be in the "overweight" category but that means I will have lost 100lbs. 100 FREAKING POUNDS on a girl who is only 5'2"!!! Wouldn't that be cool if I could say "Oh, I lost 100lbs." Yeah. It would be.
Highest weight: 243lbs ("Morbidly obese")
Lowest Weight: 184.4lbs ("Obese")
Current Weight: 190.2lbs (Still "obese")
2010 Goal: 160lbs (Puts me in the "overweight" category, and out of the "obese" category.)
Just Because Goal: 143lbs (At the lower end of the "overweight" category.)
"Healthy Weight" Goal: 130lbs (Puts me in the "healthy weight" range for my BMI.)
This was me sometime during summer 2009.
This was me...uhh...like Fall 2009. Not much different. I think I was just wearing bigger pants.
This is me today. I actually WEIGH more than I did in Fall 2009. But with all the cardio I'm getting a little more toned. I look kinda weirdly pregnant in the side photo. Meh.
So there you have it. Since Brad and I don't live in the same town right now, it's obviously pointless to be charting, doing ovulation tests, etc... Therefore (and this post is coming soon) I am working on MYSELF. Sucking it up and realizing that I have PCOS and infertility because I am TOO FAT. That's it. I need to realize it. Anyone who is TTC with PCOS and is overweight also needs to realize it. Taking tons of pills, injecting ourselves, etc...etc... isn't the FIRST thing we need to be doing. We need to get to a healthier weight first. It sucks, but it's a simple idea that only requires one thing - DISCIPLINE!
Sorry for the angry rough-talk. It's just that when you KNOW what you need to do, yet lack the will and strength to do it, it gets frustrating. It's not like I'm laying on the couch eating cake all day (okay like 1% of the time I will do that...) but I'm not Going Nazi or anything.
And that is my next post. :D